A Venting Session

So, I'm having lots of trouble finding a jacket for Rebeka to send back to Latvia. It is one of the things we need to send home with her. And it needs to be knee or calf length and filled with down or something similar since it's so very cold over there. I have been searching and searching the internet and can't come up with anything under $100...In fact the only thing I did find was $199 and I'm sorry, but I can't do that! I also have to find one for Robbie but it doesn't have to be a long jacket so that will be easier. So, if anyone out there reading this happens to have one or knows where we can find one, please let me know!!

Enough venting...for now.

I wanted to let everyone know that NHFC has pictures and biographies of children here that still need forever families up on there website. When I get done with this post, I will put a link on the side of our page to them. Rebeka & Robbie are on there as well as about 40 other children. Please pray for all of them. My heart is broken over sending Rebeka & Roberts back to Latvia without knowing they are going to have a family. Craig and I have come to feel that we are not it but that decision doesn't leave us at peace about anything. I think Rebeka & Roberts need a mom and dad that either have no other children or maybe older children (teenagers or something) because they need to be retrained and retaught a lot of things and they need a lot of one on one attention that is hard to give them when we already have 3 very young children that need the same kind of attention. They haven't had an easy life and need to learn trust as well as appropriate responses and behaviors to things and a lot of that will take time and lots of attention. It's hard for us because we love these kids so much. Today, Rebeka was off playing and I heard her softly crying. When I went to check on her she started crying more and said, "Me America--me no Latvia!! Please mommy!" I asked her if she didn't like Latvia and she said she did but still "Me America!" I tried to explain to her that she has to go back and she then said "Me Latvia, You Latvia, Mommy." These children need a family. They need to know that kind of love. It made me so sad and upset that I wanted to change my mind and say yes to adopting just so they won't be sad! I think she thinks that if she is good enough, nice enough or asks me the right way that she won't have to go back. Please pray that a Christian family will come along for them! And pray for all of us as we enter the last week they are here with us. It will be very sad.

Brooke