Undecided

So, we checked undecided and faxed it in--a day late but we wanted a little more time to pray about it. We literally go back and forth everyday between yes and no. I seriously wish God would post it on a billboard somewhere....or if I could open my Bible and see written on the page: "Helf family--the answer is..." with a yes or no following it. I've never been very good at waiting for anything.
We have arrived at Nana's and Papa's for the Hicks reunion. There will be a bunch of people here tomorrow--a lot of whom Rebeka & Roberts haven't met yet. I'm very excited but I'm sure they will be shy at first like they usually are. They probably think we're the craziest family ever with having to meet so many people all the time!
Rebeka is starting to listen a tad better to us after a brief talk with Ginta (the chaperone from her orphanage) but she is still testing, which I know is normal. However, knowing it's normal doesn't make it any easier to deal with. I have seen a change in her though. She has opened up to us more and tells us about her life in Latvia. It's tough to hear. It's easy to forget that horrible things happen to other people every second when we live in a "sheltered" box.
We still need your prayers about everything. Since we checked undecided, we now have to send in a biography and pictures of the kids to NHFC so that they can try to find other families who might want to meet them to see if they would like to adopt them. I think that will be both a good thing and an incredibly hard thing.

Brooke